I have no idea what I want to do with my life. And that's OK.

Growing up, I always thought I knew what I wanted to do in life. With a love for writing, I thought it was a simple career path. Go to college, get a degree in journalism, and the rest will follow.

Except that’s not what I’m passionate about. Ever since I could remember, I wanted to change the world. From creating bracelets at my afterschool program at the age of 11 and selling them on the streets to raise money for victims of Hurricane Sandy to founding my high school’s mental health awareness club to volunteering at my local animal shelter: I knew I wanted to make a difference.

Whenever someone would ask me, “What’s your dream job?” I would answer quickly, “Working at National Geographic.”

Except somehow now I’m 21 and have found myself doing content creation about Formula 1 racing and trying to make a career out of it. And I can’t help but feel lost.

Because it feels like I’m letting that little girl who wanted to make a difference down. How can you dedicate your life to talking about a sport like it’s the only thing that matters? What about those dreams you once had?

Sometimes I see YouTube videos of people traveling and telling stories, meeting new people and bringing awareness to important causes, and I think to myself, “Yeah, that’s a bit of me.” Yet instead of making a difference, I’m sitting on my ass making videos about cars. Well done.

It becomes this overwhelming feeling when you want to do everything. I want to change the world, I want to spread awareness about animal conservation and protection, I want to share stories that matter, I want to meet people and learn about different cultures. But I also want to be a motorsport journalist, I want to be a content creator, I want to interview athletes and share their stories, I want to be creative. I want it all.

And life feels so short yet so long but it still doesn’t feel possible to have it all. We are always told to stick to one. Do what makes you successful, what brings you money. But you know what I think about that? It’s all bullshit. Do what brings you happiness and the rest will follow.

While it’s not the same as “changing the world” I now realize what I’m doing in motorsport and with my TikTok is important, and it is changing some people’s lives. I’ve helped many young girls feel validated and feel like they can do anything they set their mind to, and you know what? I’m happy with that.

So yeah, I really don’t know what the fuck I want to do with my life. But I’m only 21 and I have the rest of my life to decide. No matter what I do, I know I’m making myself proud, and that little girl with big dreams is smiling wide knowing she’s done it. And who knows, maybe I can do it all.